Actually.. No sex, yes drugs and alternative music.
I am on anti depressant/ anti anxiety meds. The doc said it would help also with my concentration.
Anyway. I'm doing a lot better.
But I don't want to jinx myself. >.>
I have the next two days off. And I'm gong to try and get done the things I should. :') Sorry! Thank you guys for not nagging or being impatient with me. I appreciate that more than you know. <3 You all are so kind and I'm so grateful for your friendship.
I find it strange how easy it was to forgive. No matter how hard I still try, I can't get mad. Not really. I'm still in love. "More than yesterday, but less than tomorrow." Love is weird. Painful. I still wonder if it is worth the time and emotional energy to love someone with your entire being to have it all come to naught. That's awfully pessimistic of me. lol.
Also, I have a cold. :3 It sucks. I hate it. lol. XD
I'm gonna go try to draw.
hopefully I can get something done.
I just sneezed all over my computer. That was so disgusting.. Omg.. ew.
School isn't going as I had hoped. I have to take the ACT test in a couple weeks. And I have these couple weeks to study for THE ENTIRE TEST. I'm feeling very overwhelmed. As far as that goes. Maybe I'll just wing it. o-o
Finally, I've fond myself getting better by having the mindset of wanting --needing to be better. A better PERSON. And better to myself. I've always been so hard on myself. I've held myself back and I've held.. others back. I intend, more than anything, to do what's best for me. I've always put others' needs before mine to the point where I have nothing left for myself. How humble I sound. >.> lol. I intend to do for others, as I always have. But I'm focusing, mainly on myself. Everyone needs to be selfish sometimes. <.> Just not all the freakin time. =_=
I love you guys so much. Thank you all so much for everything.
You inspire me. <3